MOST REPLYS II: Return of the Reply

[Ducttape]

Originally Posted by wickedbob

Sure thing mad, probably going to make a thread to get answers, I don't know fair prices like I used to.

I'm not an idiot who thinks they can knock off 20$ off what they got, used parts, even in great condition go cheap. Not sure how cheap they should be, don't wanna rip anybody off.

fair enough. Just let me know. I've finally got a job and keep breaking parts haha. I could definitely use the seat at least.

Originally Posted by wickedbob

I star gaze. Living in the country, I can lay out under the stars all night. Have this week, until late or early in the pm. Was out till 2 last night. Going back out to night. Play some really chill music, light up a cigar and just let it all go.

Yeah, I'm still no where with the other sex. I've met an amazing girl, beautiful, intelligent, funny, can hold conversation without it being all gossip, and for some reason she has seemed to really take a liking to me.... she's taken, has been for 2 years, and I'm on my way out to go work in the city and start my life. Sucks.

I'd love to go star gaze and stuff like that but living in the city doesn't allow for that. I'm sorry to hear about the lady of interest. I hope it all works out for you. We haven't talked in ages man, it's good to hear from you and be online at the same time again. I just can't get my brain out of overdrive all the time now. I'm moving to Vegas in January, going to run an orthodontic lab. Not what I had dreamed of doing the last 4 years of my life but it's a good solid career with a nice open market and isn't going under anytime soon.

I'm only 19 and crazy unsure that I can handle the responsibility of this. I just really want to go back to school and learn to fly planes. I'm happiest in the skies, but I can't always be there. I'm just ready to start looking for that one girl who will be around for a long time. Only problem is I'm terrible at being in a relationship, I'm untrusting and yet overly trusting at the same time. I worry all the time. I need reasons for everything and if something doesn't make sense then I constantly question it until it does, but relationships never make sense so I just end up being annoying.

I don't even really know who I am even. I grew up with more friends than I could count then they all went away and I became the butt of every joke. It seemed that no one liked me and I saw no point in school at all and considered dropping out even though I knew I'd never do it. I lost my sense of self and have yet to find it again. I lied about everything when I was little, I'd steal from the pantry and say I didn't do it. I tried to please everyone and hurt no one and ended up tangling myself in a web of lies that I can't even tell from the truth anymore and yet somehow I have never slipped up when recounting a story even if I told the same story to 5 different people a different way each time I always knew the right versions.

My attempts to please everyone have done nothing but upset everyone and rip myself into a million little pieces. I can't tell who the real me is anymore. I just want to disappear and know I wont be missed. I need to figure out who I am and what I really want in life but this life I'm living, whoever's it may be is moving too fast for me to even sit down to think for a few seconds. I don't know why I do what I do, or say what I say, I don't know if what I'm doing is the right thing to do, I don't know if I can really call my friends true friends or if they're just people I keep around so I can do stuff like this and rant at them or just have them around to keep me from being lonely. I just don't know...

I'm not even sure why I'm ranting about it in here even except that this is the one place I can feel like I'm able to expose how I really feel about life and myself. Even though this is probably the most public way in possible to do all of this. I don't know if anyone here will actually have the patience to read and reply to all of this but I just want to thank you all. I don't care that I haven't met about half of MR but you've all been there for me through everything ever since I joined the forums. My connection to this community is probably one of the most influential things in my life lately. So thank you all... thank you so much... really. Without you guys I'd still be bottling all of this up and hiding it from myself and everyone just making things worse.

[wickedbob]

Read it all. Feel you broski.

Seriously, I'm getting my own place this November, going to be finishing HS, probably going to be working 7 jobs 7 days a week for peanuts, living pay check to pay check just trying to find out what I want in life. Everybody in Hs seems to have everything neatly planned out.

Ha, when it says "what do you want to be when your older", I put down happy, and the doc locked at my like I was off my rocker. She came back with "No, seriously?" I said yes and got a strange, strange look.

I'm hoping to move toward Vegas this next coming summer, nothing concrete, just would like to get out of the east, it's old here. Hope I can get the funds in a year and a bit. Good luck with the job, still no idea what I'm going to do.

[Ducttape]

Originally Posted by wickedbob

Read it all. Feel you broski.

Seriously, I'm getting my own place this November, going to be finishing HS, probably going to be working 7 jobs 7 days a week for peanuts, living pay check to pay check just trying to find out what I want in life. Everybody in Hs seems to have everything neatly planned out.

Ha, when it says "what do you want to be when your older", I put down happy, and the doc locked at my like I was off my rocker. She came back with "No, seriously?" I said yes and got a strange, strange look.

I'm hoping to move toward Vegas this next coming summer, nothing concrete, just would like to get out of the east, it's old here. Hope I can get the funds in a year and a bit. Good luck with the job, still no idea what I'm going to do.

That's all I've ever wanted was to be happy. People at my first school and every doctor that school had me see all thought I was crazy for having that answer. Then I changed schools and every teacher there was there not because they had to be but because the were HAPPY there... I had finally thought I'd settled on my career in the skies and then I lost my job that was going to pay for it. I spent over half a year just floating around trying to get a job. Finally got this internship and now it's like my whole life plan has changed. I've been sent for a loop and I'm spinning out of control again. I'm in and out of depression, I'm constantly worrying about absolutely nothing, I just want to forget everything. I want to start over and see if doing something different could really change things. I know there's no sense in dwelling on the past, and I don't but I just want a fresh start where I'm not on the fast track to anywhere. I want to be able to find that happy place everyone always says they have and stuff...

[spazdude222]

Hey guys!

I also read your whole post, bro. Although I don't know how much stock you put in religious ideas, I'll be praying for you. I found a purpose for my life because of God, so maybe you might want to look there too?

After all, if He does exist, He knows you better than you know yourself... He could help you learn who you are.

[Ducttape]

Originally Posted by spazdude222

Hey guys!

I also read your whole post, bro. Although I don't know how much stock you put in religious ideas, I'll be praying for you. I found a purpose for my life because of God, so maybe you might want to look there too?

After all, if He does exist, He knows you better than you know yourself... He could help you learn who you are.

Thanks Sam. Although I've lost faith in God(or gods) I appreciate the prayers because regardless of my beliefs it helps to know someone else out there is thinking enough about me to do that.

[wickedbob]

I really, really wish I could be religious at times, seriously, just isn't in me.

An infinite source of hope seems like it would be nice.

[spazdude222]

Originally Posted by wickedbob

I really, really wish I could be religious at times, seriously, just isn't in me.

An infinite source of hope seems like it would be nice.

I've found it to be. As a side note (I don't want to start a religious debate by any means). It's not so much about "religion" as it is about knowing who God is, and what He wants; and what He wants is for us to draw near to Him and trust that He is working things together for our good, even when it seems otherwise.

[Ducttape]

Originally Posted by spazdude222

I've found it to be. As a side note (I don't want to start a religious debate by any means). It's not so much about "religion" as it is about knowing who God is, and what He wants; and what He wants is for us to draw near to Him and trust that He is working things together for our good, even when it seems otherwise.

Sam, I don't think it's possible to start a religious debate in MR. None of us see a point in arguing. Everyone makes their own choices. Some people disagree with them and that's life. I personally find your views on religion to be comforting but at the same time I've tried the whole thing many times myself and it just didn't fit for me. I just could never be happy with it the many times I've tried.

[spazdude222]

Fair enough. Well, it's getting late, and I feel the need to get some shut eye. I hope everything turns out awesome

[GILD]

Originally Posted by dan de man

morning
how has the last few days treated you gild??

Moderately.
Woke up on Saturday with the sore throat of sore throats.
Had to go play a pipe band gig. I do the announcements about the songs while we're playing, only on Saturday, my little PA system played up, leaving me to crank up the pipes and do announcements from the middle of a football field to the assembled masses on the stands.
The throat weren't happy.
We played pretty well tho.

Then headed off to a really kewl venue to see The Parlotones, South Africa's best band at the moment, they tell me.
I'm medium-whelmed.
The tequila was cold tho.
Had a whole lot of it as well.
Also punched a wall in a moment of pique.

Not a good idea.

Now, I have a cold.

I'm just peachy, yourself?

[Ducttape]

Originally Posted by spazdude222

Fair enough. Well, it's getting late, and I feel the need to get some shut eye. I hope everything turns out awesome

Night Sam. Thanks for the prayers. I hope that things continue to go well for you.

[wickedbob]

Possible, but hard.

[GILD]

Originally Posted by habbywall

Morning, quick post before heading off to a kite festival today! Tata all!

May the wind be steady and at your back.

[GILD]

Originally Posted by saskatchewanian

I will have a lew with a view

What's a "lew"?

[GILD]

Originally Posted by GILD

leaving me to crank up the pipes

In this instance, "pipes" refers to the vocal chords, yeah?